Sunday, November 30, 2008

Advent Begins

It is a Sunday morning, the first Sunday in Advent, in fact, and I am allowing myself to lazily and slowly come to consciousness. My mind is not racing with all the services that need to be planned, the volunteers that need to be recruited, the youth group events that need to be coordinated... I'm just thinking about finding our home Advent wreath and getting it on the table, and having friends over tonight as my family always did on weekends in Advent, and making chex mix with my sister (another weekly Advent tradition in my childhood home). I'll go to one of two worship services today, the one that is likely to be more Adventish. And I'll do my best to rest and or prepare the home for the season...

... and the baby.

For the lack of parish madness is not the only difference this Advent season. For the last three Advents (or was it four?) I felt the grief of infertility more acutely than at any other time of the year. As I prepared to preach on improbable conceptions, hope, expectation... it was dreadful. And this couldn't have been sadder for me as Advent had previously been my favorite liturgical season. For the last several years it has been something to survive and that has been very sad indeed.

So, of course God would give this gift in Advent. Of course. To literally be in my own Advent as this liturgical season dawns, awaiting a holy birth... a gift finally given.

I don't know why I fretted about a possible early baby. There is no way this baby could have come before Advent. No way at all.

O Come, O Come Emmanuel
         O Come, O Come sweet child of mine
And ransom captive Israel
         And bring to us your light divine.
That mourns in lonely exile here
         For we in darkness long did dwell
Until the Son of God appears
         Until the gift of you on us fell.
Rejoice! Rejoice!
         Rejoice! Rejoice!
         Sweet child of mine
shall come to thee, O Israel.
         shall come to bring light right on time.


Rev Kim said...


Thinking of you and praying for all of you.

Lorraine said...

Just wanted to let you know that I thought of you in church yesterday. We don't know each other, I've emailed you I think once when I came here from your old blog... and yet, thanks to this wonderful world of cyber space I find myself waiting for your baby with great anticipation! I can't wait! lol.. :)

I'm laughing about the cable also... When I had my first baby we had an old TV that did not have a remote. When the baby was only a few days old I got "trapped" one day while nursing him -- the TV had been on the morning news but then went to something I wasn't interested in. However, I didn't dare get up to turn the channel because I didn't want to wake up my son. My husband went that night to buy a TV with a remote. lol.... Cable will be good. Because even when your baby has finished nursing and is asleep you will want to just sit there and watch him/her. I loved letting my babies sleep on me when they were very new. Comforting for both of us.

Anyway... thinking of you as you enter into these last few days before the birth, and praying that all goes well and you can have the home birth that you want. (having been involved with La Leche League I know many many women who had home births and none of them had any problems.)


Sarah S-D said...

thanks so much lorraine for your thoughts, well-wishes, and memories. and thank you, kim, for your thoughts and prayers.